tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-434966004083105957.post1892529515840302467..comments2023-03-29T12:16:13.163-04:00Comments on Formerly A&A: Social fail!A&Ahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00199451832512165484noreply@blogger.comBlogger3125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-434966004083105957.post-85132409762015731992009-04-23T12:47:00.000-04:002009-04-23T12:47:00.000-04:00"I'm really afraid of rejection; ironically, thoug..."I'm really afraid of rejection; ironically, though, I end up being rejected...by myself."<br /><br />Ah, I think I know exactly what you mean. And the labeling thing, I feel like compartmentalizing myself can make me know myself better, but it just ends up confusing me. It feels very two-faced, but I feel like each "version" of me is fully me, and yet still so contradictory that it's hardly me at all. And you'd think that wouldn't affect how I interact with other people, but sometimes I guess I care too much about how I am being viewed by others to risk making friends in the first place.A&Ahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00199451832512165484noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-434966004083105957.post-18146288613724164162009-04-19T18:09:00.000-04:002009-04-19T18:09:00.000-04:00You're a homeschooler--of course you're socially i...You're a homeschooler--of course you're socially inept ;)!<br /><br />Just kidding. But really, though, I know what you mean. Sometimes I think it's because I don't really want to meet people. I mean, if so much hurt has come from the people I know, why reach out to others? But that's not really it. I'm really afraid of rejection; ironically, though, I end up being rejected...by myself.<br /><br />Other times I think that it's because I'm so different. And yet...a lot of us are. Just because we're different doesn't mean that we shouldn't reach out.<br /><br />Another thing that keeps me back is fear of myself: I mean, who am I going to be? I wish that I was secure enough in who I am to be sure that every time that I talk to people I know who it is who's going to talk to them, but I'm not. I try to be myself...but always end up putting myself in one comfort blanket of a cliche or another. Who's it going to be this time? The geek? The social butterfly? The reader? The smart kid? The musician? The emo-poet? The comedian? And try as I might, it never ends up being just...me. Just Edward.<br /><br />Do you feel the same way, Haley? Or are you confident enough in yourself that that isn't an issue?Edward Jessehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17519520935701704427noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-434966004083105957.post-17834614760209279472009-04-19T00:29:00.000-04:002009-04-19T00:29:00.000-04:00I'm sorry Hayley, and I know how you feel (I can a...I'm sorry Hayley, and I know how you feel (I can actually say that honestly). It really isn't easy meeting people...very old thing to say, said a million times before, but true. If I had some insight to give, I would, but I don't. All I can really say is that you aren't alone (I have to appreciate the irony in this sentence). I've stood in a corner, or sat by myself a time or twelve. <br />I hope tomorrow is a good day, and maybe if you get a chance to read this before you get to your stuff tomorrow morning...Good luck, I'm praying for you and I dare you to try to meet a kid named "James" (Jim, Jimmy, Jimbo,)Michael Au-Mullaneyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11237672783415011871noreply@blogger.com