Clumsy

Originally posted to Xanga on April 10, 2006

Christianity is hard. actually, to quote Blaise Pascal, "Christianity is strange." but in comparison to the mess the world is in, in comparison to the darkness the unsaved wander in, I am so glad, no, glad is not the word, elated to be a Christian. Chris Rice's song "Clumsy" kinda says what I'm thinking, because I keep messing up and I feel like I haven't actually gone anywhere with my walk Christ. thankfully there's hope, by God.

You think I'd have it down by now

Been practicin' for thirty years

I should have walked a thousand miles

So what am I still doin' here

Reachin' out for that same old piece of forbidden fruit

I slip and fall and I knock my halo loose

Somebody tell me what's a boy supposed to do?

Cause I get so clumsy

I get so foolish

I get so stupid

And then I feel so useless

But you're sayin' You love me

And you're still gonna hold me

And that You wanna be near me

'Cause You're makin' me holy

You're still makin' me holy, yeah

I'm gonna get it right this time

I'll be strong and I'll make You proud

I've prayed that prayer a thousand times

But the rooster crows and my tears roll down (again)

Then You remind me You made me from the dust

And I can never, no never, be good enough

And that You're not gonna let that come between us

From where I stand

Your holiness is up so high I can never reach it

My only hope is to fall on Jesus

of course, I'm not thirty, I've only been doing this for like ten years, I'm so blessed to have such an amazing Christian enviorment, you'd think I'd be just a little more with it than I am. I just need to stop being so darn stubborn, and let God work in my life.